<TD width="30"></TD><P class=blogSubject>if i had followed my "plan" </P><P class=blogContent><FONT size=2><SPAN style="FONT-FAMILY: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif">i've been thinking of </SPAN></FONT><A href="http://www.geocities.com/joyouspoetry/" target=_self>joy</A><FONT size=2><SPAN style="FONT-FAMILY: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif"> a lot lately, so it freaked me out when vanessa texted me yesterday, asking me not to drive to nyc. in a nutshell, i appreciate my friends and i'm flying to nyc. below is an entry of joy's about nyc.

peace,
mars

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<B><FONT face=Arial><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 14px">Largest Blackout in US History Shuts Down NYC, Other Cities
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trying to ask myself if i'm not in new york right now because i'm actually trying to be responsible or because i'm scared or because i'm lazy...

then a little voice in my head (yes, have conversations with myself)::
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stop trying so hard to get where you think you want to be - be present where you are

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less daring and adventurous, but i've done the homeless thing - living out of storage, sleeping on piles of towels on mica's dorm floor, crashing post-party on timi's couch, curling up on david's ottoman, even freezing my ass off on some roof in pb in the middle of the night.&nbsp; i feel i'm a seasoned nomadic wanderer.&nbsp;

i'm still game for serendipiocitic adventures, but just aiming to go in with an actual game plan.</SPAN></FONT></P>